Monday, December 12, 2011

No less



You think of me as strong when I am weak. you think of me weak when I'm strong.

You may not know even I call myself a fool and maybe so, in time I will know, for letting myself be pulled where my heart whats to go.

the way I feel for you hasn't crest but for so long I've felt this tear at my chest I want to rest, but because I've seen what you can't, I can give no less .

Friday, December 9, 2011

The Moon

When look up at a full moon like, tonight's I am always inspired. I think about the great men and women of the past who have looked up. I wonder what was going through their minds, were they simply in awe of it beauty or did they see it as more in the same way I do?







When I look up I see "continuity ". When I say continuity I mean the moon above all else reminds me of the  people that were here before me and about the people after me. Have they and will they see it like I do? a link to the Past, Present and Future.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Movies that changed my life....

I've seen more movies in my time on this earth than you would think possible.
It's very hard for me to make a list of "My Top Ten Favorite Movies" or something like that.
So, I'm not going to try. What I am going to do is to bring up some films that I know changed my life in one way or another.




"The Lion King" (1994)





I think I was 7 or 8 years old when it came out, I had just got out of the hospital for a small operation I needed and to be nice to me, my Mom took me to see a bunch of movies in the theaters (something we never did)
and one of the movies was obviously "the lion king" the story was very intriguing to my young mind, it will
sound weird but the character motivation was like nothing I had seen before (I had no idea it was based off of Hamlet) and it is still the only movie I ever cried to ha-ha (Mufasa's death scene)


James bond in Goldeneye (1995)
There's not a man in the world with access to a  theater who hasn't dreamed of being James bond. Before Goldeneye, I had seen some of the 007 films but they didn't register with me but when I saw Pierce Brosnan, a bond of my era, it made me appreciate the bond films as a whole and gave me an archetype to base my whole persona after (I'm half joking)













 " Reign of Fire" (2002)

Oh 'reign of fire' let me say I hate this movie with all my heart (remember this isn't my favorite films list it's just some of the ones that change my life) this movie made me lose fate in Hollywood movies,
it was so hyped up, I remember I couldn't wait to see it. from the trailer it looked like a "non-stop
dragon killing fest" but it turned out to be one long boring terribly written drama. it made me realize
what is most important for any movie a good story with great characters 


The Back to the Future series (Nov.5th 1885 -Oct 21th 2015)

There no way to express of much of an impact these movies has had on me. I've dated girls because of them, I've taking jobs because of them, it's one of those iconic things that connects me to my whole generation.









Reservoir Dogs (1992)

I didn't see this it till I was in my late teens, it taught me alot about what you don't show in a movie
can be the most powerful, you ask anyone who seen it and they will tell you it's a super violent film
but in actuality there is very little on screen. the dialog and the angles Quentin Tarantino choose gave a feeling of extreme violence.






"The Usual Suspects" (1995)
the story is very well writing, I won't ruin it for you if you haven't seen it, but it still to date the
only movie that has every truly tricked me.( ha-ha)


"36th chambers of Shaolin (A.K.A Master Killer)"
(1978 )

Anyone who knows me, knows that martial arts is a big part of my life and so are martial arts movies,
the 36th chambers is one of my earliest kung fu movie memories.

It's a the story of a young man, driving by a single goal, that goal pushes him so far that he is able to do the seemly impossible. I believe this movie had a huge impact on me, that anything
is possible if you want it badly enough. Something I still believe to this day.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

His Father's Shield

There was strange chill in the air that made this cold day even colder, the land was grey lifeless, colorless, there seem to be floating pockets of warmth as the boy walked. He would stand still when he felt the warm air hoping it would last long enough to fight off this cold, that went sight to his core.

His eyes were half opened with a blank look on his face, as if he'd been up for days and all he wanted to do was to find his bed, but he didn't stop, just kept walking forward. the clothes he wore were of the fine material edge with a gold lace, you could tell once they a brilliant pure white, but now they were caked in mud, dirt and blood.

He had been walking so long looking only were his next step was going to land until the sick smell of blood was in the air. He looked up and saw a battlefield with bodies as far as his eyes could see. Nervously he started to move though the field, over the bodies, carefully placing his feet so not to step on any of the fallen soldiers. Fear shook him as if to tell him "No, go back" but he went forward determined as he walk over the fallen he'd scanned their faces, even turning some over whom death had found them on their side and even brushing off the blood soaked mud that had formed on their faces. the fear he felt soon returned and bent down holding his knees he started to rock on his feet back-and-forth he fought the urge to cry out, for someone, for anyone, for help. the feeling soon pasted when he realized there were no on to cry out to...


He looked up over his knees and saw a shimmer of gold on a shield, he jumped to his feet ran to it,
he soon saw it up-close. he looked over the detail of the shield's gold, something he had done a hundred times before, he slowly stared at the man under it, and saw the man who had care for him
loved him, dead. his father. this is what the boy had feared but he needed to know for sure.

two days before his father was leading his men into the final battle in a very long war. his father knew that this was the last battle, that this one meant victory and he wanted his son to see it first hand and the boy was eager to go along, he wanted nothing more than to please his beloved father and be a Great King just like him. father and son stood on a high cliff together looking over the enemy's camp and his father started to tell him all the decisions he had made as king to get to this point in the war, why it was so important to their people to win. He tried to tell him as much as he could but he knew the boy had the passion of a King but was too young to understand the wisdom he was trying to share. so he smiled and choose just to enjoy the moment with his boy.

His father wisdom was gone now... when the boy understood this, a sense of grief hit him. he tried to cry but no tears could roll down his face, he tried to yell out but no sound could leave his mouth...there was no relief  from his pain


A shadow moved across the face use to belong to his father, he quickly turned a looked it was man dressed in red and gold uniform, the dress of his fathers enemy...his enemy.  the man stood still as if he was statue.
 

The boy stood still in fear, paralyzed by it. the man bent over and said ''Are you this man's son?'' (the boy did not move or answer ) He said it again "Is this your Father boy?!'' (the boy said nothing.) the Man said "you are he's son! you're the young prince .'' " Well I want you to know My King will be very happy to see you'' Even though the boy was young he knew what that meant. He knew the Man's King would put him to death and seal his right to his fathers kingdom.
but the boy the was scared he couldn't fight, the man grab him by the hand and started walking him off the battlefield until the boy saw he's father shield slowly starting to move further and further away. only then did pull against the man, and said " No"

the man said laughing  "you don't have a choice, your highness" the boy said " not without my father's shield! " the man laughed and said fine than, but it won't do you much good..." the boy slowly walked, than ran back to his father and picked up the shield, when he did, all the pain and fear he felt vanished he search inside himself and felt nothing, nothing at all.. at this moment the boy saw his father's sword sticking out of a man wearing a red and gold uniform, he put his hand around the handle with a tight grip he pulled as hard as he could but the boy's strength wasn't needed, it pulled out smooth and clean.

the man saw this and thought the boy was being foolish and ran up to the him ready to knocking the sword and shield out of the boy's hands. the boy look at the man he once fear so much, as being so small. and without fear, hate or anger, with no feeling at all plunged the sword into not he's father enemy not into his enemy, nor his people's but simple because he knew that's what he need to do to survive. That's what he needed to do, his time wasn't meant to ended here of with his father.

He knew a wisdom few every see, that the King wasn't gone, as long as he lived.

Monday, November 14, 2011

"The Man who loved a Princess"

I was a man who walked a path to greatness, but along the way the path grew cold and the earth
seemed restless. the signs twisted into a strange language. I walked for so long I forget
why I was walking, where I was going and who sent me, even my own name.
''Without a name who am I ? ''I asked Myself.

On my journey I met Knights, Peasants, Kings, Cobblers, Merchants, lairs and thieves. saints
and sinner. Because I lost my name, it was easy to learn from them, each of them the good and the bad.
One day a would call myself knight, the next sinner, the next, the man who walked the path, the
next king... and even when all was well, god. Till' one day walking I met a Girl but this girl was like none I've seen before, Her beauty was so great I questioned if it was even real, It pour out of Her like rays from the Sun. -Like walking out of a dark cave my eyes needed to adjust- When they did I saw her, who she truly was. In that moment I fell in love with her.

She didn't give her name so, I didn't know what to call Her. Even though I didn't know her name,
she still responded to me. All I knew to call her was." beauty " for that, I knew she was.
As the season went on I knew this title wasn't enough for Her. she was much more than just a beauty. Like a child asking the name for the sky from his father, I asked the Heavens for Her name and
they answered. "Princess "

The world made sense again! I knew her name So, that gave me back mine "Prince" and I called Her Princess, this made her happy. she knew I cared enough to learn her true name.
Than one day she asked my name and I said "Cobbler...no Saint, no Knight" I wanted to say "Prince" of
course but I couldn't find the word because I was real no Prince of any Kingdom. for my Kingdom
laid still waited years away in a far off land that I had not even seen myself. How could tell her 'Prince'.

My heart broke. "I can't make my Princess a Queen" for I am no King nor a Prince. My love
blinded me in thinking, I was More. That my love could make me more or at least be enough but
just enough, is never enough. I know my name but I am still just a Man, on the path. Who loved his Princess and I know I would  love her more than any Man, Prince or King ever could, but I can't ask her to wait for me to find my Kingdom. It is her right to be a Queen.

So, I must let her go...Not because have to OR want to. Because I...love her.
I know my love could keep her here with me, but that is all it could do, keep her. I want her to live like the Heavens planned, I know she might find a another King. Even a man who didn't know his name could see Her. My greatest regret is not being able to show her how much I love her. Not because I didn't try, because... to do that, would take a lifetime.

I know my name " The Man on a Path" "Prince to his Kingdom" " the boy who loves a girl. "